Published on 12, July, 2020
Like most with autism I dont like change and I am finding everything really overwhelming and was wondering how others were coping?
It may seem daft but I am not worried about catching it, well obviously I don’t want to catch it but I am not anxious and thinking that I am going to catch it. It’s the lockdown and lack of routine that is sending me mad. I have my set routines and now I have to stay in I cant follow my weekly routines and this is what is causing me the stress. I do feel like your going to think I am being selfish as all I have to do is stay at home and others are putting their lives at risk, I just cant snap out of it.
A few years ago I had bit of a breakdown when things changed too much and it made me really ill, I am worried this may happen again, I live on my own and am really considering ignoring all the rules and just getting out of here but I no that is wrong and I think the stress of breaking the rules would then cause me an issue.
maybe I am over reacting, what is everybody else doing to get through this?, anybody else struggling too?
Another thing. Tomorrow night is going to be another nightmare as the entire street erupts in a gratuitous display of sensory overload inducing virtue signalling.
NHS workers get paid for a living and have a cushy life with a big fat pension. I'm entirely comfortable with the idea that for once they actually have to do some work and the heavily female NHS can finally put some effort into matching male workplace fatality rates.
But no, apparently this makes me the abnormal uncaring one, lacking in emotional intelligence, and instead I should be proudly displaying my ability to join in a national celebration of feeling good about yourself instead of actually doing something constructive. Like, for instance, making life for a neighbour utter hell for ten minutes then blaming the neighbour for trying to hide instead of joining in.
Then people wonder why people on the autism spectrum have high suicide rates.