Published on 12, July, 2020
Like most with autism I dont like change and I am finding everything really overwhelming and was wondering how others were coping?
It may seem daft but I am not worried about catching it, well obviously I don’t want to catch it but I am not anxious and thinking that I am going to catch it. It’s the lockdown and lack of routine that is sending me mad. I have my set routines and now I have to stay in I cant follow my weekly routines and this is what is causing me the stress. I do feel like your going to think I am being selfish as all I have to do is stay at home and others are putting their lives at risk, I just cant snap out of it.
A few years ago I had bit of a breakdown when things changed too much and it made me really ill, I am worried this may happen again, I live on my own and am really considering ignoring all the rules and just getting out of here but I no that is wrong and I think the stress of breaking the rules would then cause me an issue.
maybe I am over reacting, what is everybody else doing to get through this?, anybody else struggling too?
I thought i was doing OK, but a few days ago I had a full-on panic attack. I was out of milk and other basics, went to the shops, felt so stressed that I forgot the pin codes on both my bank cards. People tutted at me then criticised me because I didn't know whether to put the goods back ( i had latex gloves on) or leave them with the cashier. Now my cards are blocked. I got very distressed and had to go home empty handed. People just heckled and make it worse.