Published on 12, July, 2020
Like most with autism I dont like change and I am finding everything really overwhelming and was wondering how others were coping?
It may seem daft but I am not worried about catching it, well obviously I don’t want to catch it but I am not anxious and thinking that I am going to catch it. It’s the lockdown and lack of routine that is sending me mad. I have my set routines and now I have to stay in I cant follow my weekly routines and this is what is causing me the stress. I do feel like your going to think I am being selfish as all I have to do is stay at home and others are putting their lives at risk, I just cant snap out of it.
A few years ago I had bit of a breakdown when things changed too much and it made me really ill, I am worried this may happen again, I live on my own and am really considering ignoring all the rules and just getting out of here but I no that is wrong and I think the stress of breaking the rules would then cause me an issue.
maybe I am over reacting, what is everybody else doing to get through this?, anybody else struggling too?
For me, though I tend to be a natural introvert, when I get stressed, I go for a long countryside drive and I find that I de-stress while driving. I relax...
But with this lockdown I find a panic when I can't do this.
I think we maybe similar when I was a child if I was stressed I would run, it wasn’t running as in a typical runner I would jun run Lund and round and refuse to stop when teachers tried to get me to. As an adult I would drive somewhere that would be quiet even if I didnt stay there long, also I hide in my house lots so don’t understand why lockdown is so hard for me.
I know what you mean about panicking, panic attacks really take it out of me I hope your not struggling too much