Unable to come to terms with bad events and move on - Is this all autism

Dave, as far as I can see, your way forward is very clear.

All you need to do is stop moping around and write off your losses - you're not going to turn history back.

Then decide who you want in that life with you - your kids, your wife, your friends etc

Then.assess all of your resources and then calculate what kind of life that will give you - your cash, your investments, your home, your friends etc.

I know you have health problems in addition to your losses - but I never hear you lay out any plan to go forwards - you never look at the positives in your life.

By comparison, I'm screwed - I'm seriously ill - just going through a bit of a cancer scare right now - but with everything shut down, I won't get to see the specialists - and with no immune system, I can't go out or near any hospitals.

I lost my job a few years over my poor health and my Asperger's and I'll never be able to work again.

I consider myself lucky to still be alive and, while my heart is beating, I'll keep trying to push forwards.

You keep banging on about humiliation - but that exists only in your own head.

I absolutely do not believe that you don't know a way forward.

You seem to love the drama and attention of your position - which shows narcissistic tendencies  (I have a couple of narcs my extended family - it gets tedious)

So what's stopping you turning things around?     Apart from your apparent love of wallowing in it?

What have you ACTUALLY done to move forwards except try to turn back time and make excuses for your behaviour and blame everyone else for your situation??

Again - I apologise for my bluntness.