Hi. I’m 38 married with 3 kids. My youngest child has autism and adhd. I’ve come to realise over time that it’s likely I’m on the spectrum too. I’ve always struggled with certain things and felt like I never fit in all my life and don’t really know how I am as a person. Things started to get more difficult a few years ago and now I’m at the point were I know I need to get some support as I’m at a very low point and have anxiety. My kids are my world and I always make sure their needs are met but as things have been really stressful I’ve ended up sacrificing my own needs is mental and physical health in order to keep things together. Don’t get me wrong my teens are happy, well as happy as teens can be lol but my son isn’t coping with specialist school and no one is listening to me when I tell them it’s not the right school for him. He’s coming home and acting out aggressively which sets my anxiety off and despite having boundaries and firm routines I think he may have PDA as he rebels against things I put in place. I’ve been put off going to my GP and asking to be referred for assessment as i’m scared people will assume I can’t care for my kids properly and this just isn’t the case. My husband thinks I’m being silly and is pushing me to go and see the GP but i’m really worried. Also, to get an appointment you have to tell the receptionist why you want to see the GP as they triage appointments at my surgery and then phone you back if they can fit you in. One of the receptionists is someone I know from years back who I don’t want to know my business. But I can’t carry on like this.
