I promised I would post an update on my previous post, it was posted shortly before starting my first year at university. I left uni unofficially last week, only 4 or 5 weeks before the end of year exams. The head professor of my year/course tried to convince me to stay since there is not much time left before the end of year exams and that I have done suprinsgly well for not attending many lectures. I could not bring myself to continue after giving it another chance, it looks as though I will be able to continue January next year. I had an appointment with the NHS yesterday after going to the GP in December, to discuss anxiety and autism. I come to discover that there is a two year waiting list for an autism assessment during the NHS appoinment, it felt like a smack in the face as I thought progress would me made from this point. Even when it looks as though I will back at university next year, there will still be another year of waiting for the autism assessment which is worrying to me. The main reasons I have struggled at uni is because my course is apparantelty a social course with approximately 90 people in the lectures (much higher than previous years), there are a lot of group practicals and really feel out of my place in them. I have not made any friends or found common ground with anyone, so there is little added motivation to get to uni. When I attended lectures I would just sit on my own at the back of the room, partly because I severely struggle to socialise and work at the same time and just didn't like how being in just a busy environment. I would leave before the practiclal started if there was one. Many aspects of the course are enjoyable, even though many of the modules are difficult due to having little experience in the subject(s). I cannot imagine doing another course and don't think changing course would solve anything since it is pretty much unrelated.
My landlord is aware of my situation, contract ends on the 23rd next month. I have from now until then to find somewhere to live in a new area. It will likely be somewhere through a local housing association if I find anything. Will need to sort my finances out and find some temporary work to get me through the year.
