So I volunteer in a charity shop and have done so since last Autumn. After a lot of asking about studying a qualification with them since they offer NVQs, I found out that I was due to start one later this month or early next month. Don’t get me wrong, I love studying but only if the environment is right and supportive about it.
Over the last few weeks, I’ve found myself being constantly criticised for just about anything. From not printing out gift aid labels on the shop floor (I would normally send those to the next floor, since the office has the means to do it there) to being asked to sort through some boxed donations (which I did alone) and then being told I shouldn’t have been the one to sort them and don’t touch anything again!
I’m really disappointed it’s come to this, since the charity have paid for me to start the NVQ. However, I’m very discouraged and in a bleak place. I’m unemployed and not able to work, struggle with depression and anxiety attacks and can easily become disjointed with living in general. Apart from being at the shop, I only see my parents and my boyfriend since no one else wants to spend time with me. I mean, I’m autistic, so to them I’m a liability.
Is there a way forward for me? Can life be kind and nice for once at least? After this, I generally don’t think so! Should I walk away and give up?
Been there too (we do take criticism personally and hard, some people use that and get their kicks from it), either stick it out for the NVQ, use the NVQ to further your qualifications (if already paid for) and/or find something else (Job Centre and/or Remploy).
Please consult your GP with your depression/anxiety/stress, maybe s/he can help you get a balanced medication regime (took me quite a while when in a really bad place) and/or Cognitive Behaviour Therapy/counselling.
The way forward is that you have is with your boyfriend and family, who are supportive. Too many people do not understand or just see the condition whereas we have out strengths/specialisms too.