Emotions hurt so much...

So, I went to see 'Last Christmas' with my wife & a couple of in-laws...

SiL: "That was a good film - I enjoyed it"

Wife: "Yes, better than I expected from the reviews... what did you think of it N?"

Me: "I'm going to need to go for a run to get over it..."

Them: "????"

It's a sad rom-com, I sat through a lot of it trying not to break down sobbing as the emotion of it was just TOO MUCH!

I don't think watching a film like this is supposed to make you feel like you have someone grabbing you by the throat while they punch you in the stomach... is it?

I feel like there's a deep well of pain trapped inside me and it's constantly on the brink of bursting out if the slightest crack* opens up in the walls I've built around it.

Feeling stuff just hurts so much sometimes. No wonder I have a reputation for being 'cold and heartless', I just can't afford to risk the pain.

No real point to this, just the NTs in my life won't 'get it' however hard they try (bless 'em)...

Gonna strap my running shoes on, 10k of trails should help 'Ease the pain'...

*edited: originally 'c_hink' not 'crack' but clearly NAS thinks this is a racial slur so filtered it to *** FFS! Your censorship is overkill...

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  • Sometimes I have no emotions to films and TV then other times I'm terribly emotional. My nan used to lend me stories about troubled families and their hardship. Often I would avoid reading them as I did not want to feel so sad and I would see the stories in my dreams. However I do read them now as they help me understand my feelings and those of others. Crying realeses any stress that has built up. In my head I continue the stories once I have finished the book or film. I use the emotions to empathise with others when talking to them and it builds better friendships. You're brilliant as you are. Everyone has different experiences and perceptions. 

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  • Sometimes I have no emotions to films and TV then other times I'm terribly emotional. My nan used to lend me stories about troubled families and their hardship. Often I would avoid reading them as I did not want to feel so sad and I would see the stories in my dreams. However I do read them now as they help me understand my feelings and those of others. Crying realeses any stress that has built up. In my head I continue the stories once I have finished the book or film. I use the emotions to empathise with others when talking to them and it builds better friendships. You're brilliant as you are. Everyone has different experiences and perceptions. 

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