I'm wondering if adults in later life here can understand this:
I've had six months to frame my life from an AS perspective now. Doing this is not new though, I've been coming to terms with my differences for a few years now. Disappointments and setbacks can now be framed as just my being my traits and not being 'fear of failure', laziness or just plain not articulate enough.
I've always been on the edge of things. Never creating or taking part but just using my senses through life. I realize now my senses have played a big role in my life to give me comfort and wellbeing.
Music since an early age is such an important part of my life and always will be.
Recent interest in colour and form makes watching art house and world cinema an essential part of my life now and like music, feeds wellbeing. Abstract art is beginning to be interesting too when I'd never been into art before.
Food has always been a difficult sense to grasp. But I'm finally forming a comfortable formula of textures.
Smells (like everyone can relate I know- even NTs) smell is evocative but I can get wound-up and spend a lot of time exploring how I feel if there are two or more smells that are mixing together that don't work together.
Touch. I can be fascinated with textures. I will think a long time about something that I enjoyed touching- or I didn't enjoy. It hard to articulate why this will take up a lot of my time- and like smell, can take up a stupid amount of my time.
So its all kind of odd when I hypothesis that my life has been an 'observational' role. Not leaving my mark in any way- and being ok with that. I'm almost saying that in some cosmic sense, my AS is deliberate and this was my role when I was born. I'm a work in progress though I suppose- almost selfish as I don't give back or participate.