So I'm currently not working and on esa support and also applying for pip due to numerous issues that i deal with, well I've just started to apply for the army but feel i may be being naive to even think I'm capable of doing the job, Am i simply ignoring my issues as its something i feel i want to do, should I be honest and just accept i cant do it and give into my struggles.
Also its probably a total waste of time as I doubt the army will allow me to join anyway, so its irrelevant if i believe i can conquer my issues in the pursuit of something i'm passionate about.
In my head I'm fantasising that my issues will just cease to exist because I'll be doing something I love, do i carry on with or just admit I'm kidding myself.
It's really hard to decide what to do, i want to join as an armourer, maintaining and repairing weapons systems which would be very suited for an aspie but would the job cater for the issues that being an aspie brings.
Would joining the army help build my confidence, help get into good hygiene routing which i struggle with now, help with eating and preparing food which i struggle with now, would it generally just help me to be able to better deal with my struggles or is this all just a pipe dream and i just need to face the fact my difficulties are there for good and im going to continue with not being able to function properly as an adult or in this world that's not designed for me.
