Public Meltdown/Panic Attack

This afternoon, heading home from Cookstown on the Community Transport bus, a news headline triggered me. I ended up having a panic attack and started tapping on the back of the seat in front of me; which was the driver's seat. She said I was 'distracting' her. In the end, I got home safely. However, I am still edgy after filling out Christmas Cards to post. My brother's Road Tax renewal letter arrived here; I have to forward it to his address in Derry tomorrow.

I'm trying to relax, listening to an LPs a friend of mine lent for me today. Also, I lost a pound this week at Slimming World. I must look for something positive.

Parents
  • I'm still confused about what exactly is a panic attack.

    Several times, I've ended up losing consciousness in social situations.  My mental health workers have diagnosed these as panic attacks. 

  • for me needing to get away from wherever I am is a big part of a build up to a panic attack. My wanting to get away is sometimes really unsafe - I want to get out of cars on motorways for example - it's a thing of wanting to remove myself/ run away from myself rather than a practical thing of moving away from a physical threat. I have never lost consciousness but have felt as though I was going to. wierdly I sometimes also feel like I am falling asleep in really innapropriate places. 

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  • for me needing to get away from wherever I am is a big part of a build up to a panic attack. My wanting to get away is sometimes really unsafe - I want to get out of cars on motorways for example - it's a thing of wanting to remove myself/ run away from myself rather than a practical thing of moving away from a physical threat. I have never lost consciousness but have felt as though I was going to. wierdly I sometimes also feel like I am falling asleep in really innapropriate places. 

Children
  • My attacks consist of: breathing difficulties,  chest and heart pains, a kind of darkness enveloping my mind, legs turning to jelly as I try to walk forward. And finally if I push it. I lose consciousness.  if I withdraw,  the symptoms ease.

    This has happened at school when I tried to enter the sixth form common room.  At work, trying to walk into a canteen/restaurant, while people are socialising and talking.  And sometimes into shops.

    Once it happened with no warning. In Sheffield city centre,  I found myself sitting in a chair in a Boots store and staff asking me if I was OK or wanted a drink of water.