Yesterday I wrote post about rules and today I found out I broke one and messed up at work. I was told off at 10am and after I spent over half an hour crying in the toilet, I spent the rest of the day deciding if I should give a notice and just sitting with my eyes unfocused, shaking, wanting to go home (few people asked if I’m ok but I nodded)
I didn’t do it on purpose, I didn’t even think that I shouldn’t have done it. I didn’t see any problem with it. But apparently it’s a big problem.
Just before I left I got another complaint. I changed some method and was asked for explanation. It threw me out of balance again.
The interesting part is that I was asked to explain why I did what I did only after the matter went to management and management said that the method doesn’t matter because it doesn’t effect the results. Then they came to me with the questions-why not straight away? I don’t know.
But the first thing I did I accept I shouldn’t have done it. I wasn’t first to do it and I just did what everyone else’s did not even thinking it could create any issue and others were told off as well (I heard them talking and joking about it) and I accept that I showed total lack of common sense. And again, nobody from management said anything to me, no official complaint, just some higher ups yelling, asking how I can prove that it won’t happen again. Surely saying that “sorry, I won’t do it again” gives them no proof, the only way they can be 100% sure is if I won’t work there anymore.
Anyway, now I’m thinking what should I do next.
