*Autistic Shutdowns collection* - Do you experience these ?

I have “shutdowns” when I can’t complete tasks that I have put a lot of thought into.  Which means everything.  They involve ignoring family, either by not picking up the phone or more often staring at something and refusing to respond. 

I put shutdowns into quotes because it’s a new term for me and I’m not 100% I’d use that term for myself.  Not as a derogatory tool to put down anyone else.

i need to be active all day every day until I’m satisfied.  If I get stopped midway through something or can’t finish a sentence then I act extremely immaturely until I regret it. This can take hours at most.  

I never used to allow myself to experience it, before diagnosis, I felt ashamed of feeling like it but never let it out.  I took a lot of drugs and drank alcohol heavily.  I still suffer with dependence but my wife monitors it.  

It feels like barriers have been destroyed. I relied on them not to hurt people or embarrass anyone and they’re gone.  I spent so much of my life building mechanisms to deal with ‘normal’ I don’t know what is me and what is cliche’

Sorry for going off subject a bit.  

I have “shutdowns” when I can’t complete tasks that I have put a lot of thought into.  Which means everything.  They involve ignoring family, either by not picking up the phone or more often staring at something and refusing to respond. 

I put shutdowns into quotes because it’s a new term for me and I’m not 100% I’d use that term for myself.  Not as a derogatory tool to put down anyone else.

i need to be active all day every day until I’m satisfied.  If I get stopped midway through something or can’t finish a sentence then I act extremely immaturely until I regret it. This can take hours at most.  

I never used to allow myself to experience it, before diagnosis, I felt ashamed of feeling like it but never let it out.  I took a lot of drugs and drank alcohol heavily.  I still suffer with dependence but my wife monitors it.  

It feels like barriers have been destroyed. I relied on them not to hurt people or embarrass anyone and they’re gone.  I spent so much of my life building mechanisms to deal with ‘normal’ I don’t know what is me and what is cliche’

Sorry for going off subject a bit.  

thanks for this account R80  everyone is different . The first paragraph appears to be a shutdown so thats great. 

I have stopped alcohol completely.  I decided to stop drinking because it was getting out of control. It took 2 years for me to gradually reduce my drinking then one day after reading a book by Allen Carr I stopped. This then uncovered something else, I was autistic ! and I had been drinking to be more sociable.