I read a book years ago called "Follow your smile" - it seems like a good title for this post.
I've *really* been enjoying my hobby / special interest recently; it's been enough to get me out of be early to spend a few minutes on it before setting off for work, and kept me busy literally all weekend. There's almost nothing negative to say about it, except:
- Sometimes I get frustrated in pursuing goals in it and I have to remind myself that it doesn't ultimately matter and there is a world outside!
- I feel a bit of guilt for neglecting those around me (though my wife is cool and happy to do her own thing mainly)
- I get annoyed if calendar commitments get in the way if I'm mid-way through achieving something
I've been reflecting on the fact that a) this genuinely fits the pattern for a special interest so I don't need to doubt that part of my diagnosis (good) and b) how happy and close to the real me I am when doing it. More than ever now I'm determined to ignore the prods of "should do's" that come from the wider world, and follow what I enjoy doing.
