Struggling and dont know where to turn

I'm really struggling with memories right now and dont know where to go for help. Something happened years ago its complicated but I wasent listened to, plus anxiety, depression etc I thought maybe I was wrong (even though now I'm stronger I know I'm right). I keep replaying stuff over and over in my head. I dont know where to turn. I went to gp for help but just get tablets. I only have my husband. No family or friends as I struggle no matter how hard I try to keep friends. I feel I'm drowning and theres no way out. I asked gp for autism diagnosis as I started seeing similar issues in women with autism blogs etc. But I failed the questionnaire to be put forward and was rejected. They asked things like are you married and I am but I failed to mention the amount of times we've split up but as I have no one else in the world I go back. I've really struggled in life. I feel I've been targeted by people who posed as friends and only when it's too late do I know they used me for something. I cant sleep, eat, it gets too much I breakdown in tears in my room. Just huge sobs then feel better a little while until memories flood in once more. Everything's so loud right now, everything's too much. I need help but dont know how or where

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  • Could you ask to see a different GP?

    Aren't there talking therapies you can access on the NHS (albeit with a long waiting list)?

    Also, what autism quiz was that that you took?-  Maybe you could fill in the AQ 50 and take it with you as evidence to your GP

    From my experience of poor MH, I'd just say, take things a moment at a time. Also, from personal experience, you have no choice but to forgive and forget about the past cos dwelling on it will take you down and eat you up inside.

  • I had cbt but I ended up leaving the room and had a really bad crying fit in the toilets. I cant go back. I struggle to get my point across sometimes. Other times I can but in the slotted time allowance I usually cant. 

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