I want to let myself feel! I want to love my wife! I want to love my family! I want to love the people who say they are my friends! But I can’t, I’ve been betrayed by people who I let in before, I’ve been burnt(not literally) and I can’t allow myself to feel that pain again. I’m so alone, I don’t trust anyone! I expect everyone to hurt me given the chance!
Don’t know what I’m expecting to get from posting this, doesn’t really matter what people say, these thoughts and feelings are firmly engrained in my f##ked up brain.
I’m so tired of this sh#t!
Regrets are terrible in asd as you have to stop ruminations and that is really difficult in asd. Diversion to other actions, keep busy. Time with family , enjoying treats together to try and move forward
Yea I have plenty of regrets, too many to count on both hands.
Diversions do work but the issues never go away.