Shopping disaster

Went shopping with parther she was constantly Telling me I'm  being loud then I was speaking to someone about a big bag of rice they had she kept telling me off and I felt like an idiot I think the Crywoman did find me bit odd to, whn I got I the car I was angry and having a go I Wass aying I wanna leave and that she made me feel small, I say hurtful things and I hate myself now I'm so upsetCrywhy is this happening, should I just be quiet all the time why do I sat horrible things  Cry