Ive not noticed before but Ive been so stressed of late and close to meltdown. I have a teen with ASD who Im struggling with, zero support, school holidays, stress from other sources too. No time to unwind really. I feel constantly on high alert. I cant bear my jewelry even wedding rings. noises are mking me mad. Trouble typing. My skins super itchy.
The thing that I havent noticed before is my dangerous impatience, if im super close to meltdown all logic leaves my brain. I crossed a road the other day, saw a car coming but I needed to cross, the car obviously wasent going to stop. Today I couldnt work out how to use the electric finder thingy so decided to drill in the wall anyway as i needed it done, luckily stopped at the last minute and have left the wall. I actually feel ashamed of my actions, whats wrong with me? im only like this when so close to meltdown. The last few weeks i just cant calm down i need a break but there is none. my sons quite demanding at the moment now he has hit his teens, i feel stretched so thin. Miserable. i feel like a terrible person, i really need abreak :(
