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Becoming more stressed about realising I may have autism

Doodles14

Hi ,

‘I posted a couple of weeks ago now that I suspect i may have autism at some degree. I started to write down all my traits and difficulties in life and spoke to my Husband about what I am like and what he thinks of my eccentric ways.

It has really made me pay attention to the things I do, particularly habits to self soothe. I’ve also noticed my intolerance of lots of different sounds at once and my anxiety when having to socialise. 

I will fully tried to fight all off these thinking maybe it was mind over matter and I could just try and not be bothered. But I could not and felt very frustrated.

i keep flipping from wanting an assessment referral to telling myself I’m just different I don’t need to find out it’s fine. But so many things in life are a struggle and are hard that I think it would be better to know once and for all and to then be able to manage better and tell people I have this when I’m pushed to do things that will really make me have a major amount of worry and dread.

One thing that sticks in my mind was I recently offered to volunteer at a school specifically to do art projects and display work.

i was contacted by the head and asked if I’d be a lunchtime supervisor 3 days a week instead, I explained I’d like to volunteer but be more in the background as I’m introverted but I was then given the cold shoulder after that which deeply upset me because I feel misunderstood yet again and she doesn’t understand what my problem would be when I wanted to help out.

Situations like this I’d love to say actually I am not weird there’s a real reason why I couldn’t cope with that.

There have been so many times I’ve felt misunderstood then frozen out because I won’t do things that seem no big deal to others

I am rambling sorry, I am going to go ahead with seeing my GP with my Husband 

I am feeling tearful and having bad dreams now and I think it’s the realisation that all my ways and coping mechanisms are all traits, the more I watch and read the more I feel is all exactly the same for me. 

I guess before I would think one day I’ll be able to break through the barriers and be normal and it’ll all fall into place. 

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  • It is a huge deal to realise you are autistic as an adult and think about over all the years you didn't know and think about how obvious it was when you think about it! I felt tearful and desperate before going for my assessment and diagnosis but for me it was the right thing to do and now instead of feeling weird I understand why I am different but also am more confident to help myself manage those differences.  I still don't have to tell people or explain myself but I know so much more about myself .  If you're worried about an assessment, there are so many good books you could read that would make you realise there are lots of other people out there that think like you do and find the same things difficult.  Books that really helped me were Nerdy, Shy and Socially Inappropriate, Spectrum Women, Autism (Fletcher-Watson & Happe) and Camouflage.  Good luck

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  • It is a huge deal to realise you are autistic as an adult and think about over all the years you didn't know and think about how obvious it was when you think about it! I felt tearful and desperate before going for my assessment and diagnosis but for me it was the right thing to do and now instead of feeling weird I understand why I am different but also am more confident to help myself manage those differences.  I still don't have to tell people or explain myself but I know so much more about myself .  If you're worried about an assessment, there are so many good books you could read that would make you realise there are lots of other people out there that think like you do and find the same things difficult.  Books that really helped me were Nerdy, Shy and Socially Inappropriate, Spectrum Women, Autism (Fletcher-Watson & Happe) and Camouflage.  Good luck

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