Hello, Im new to this so sorry if I get anything wrong...
Ever since I was little I felt different like everyone else would play and I would just sit and watch and I talked really quietly and would rather choose not to talk and just sat taking everything in most the time... As a kid I felt smarter than everyone else because I just took everything in, but also felt indifferent because my dad was not good to me.... And that also makes me confused whether it's from that I'm this way or something else...
From 11 years old I developed very strong anxiety and panic... I was comfortable with my closest friend but other people not so much? And even with my closest friend I'd sometimes get overwhelmed and panicked and hide from them so they couldn't play out with me because it felt like it was too much at that point... Then another day after rest and time alone I was okay?
I still have anxiety now (Generalised anxiety disorder) and I'm wondering if it's something more... As I enter situations that make me anxious I get dizzy, sometimes if I walk over a wobbly bridge I
et confused and feel dizzy and not just in the head but whole body? Sorry again if this isn't making sense I get really hot in social situations and tummy hurts etc (I know this can be anxiety too) but also once I'm comfortable with people I talk too much and talk over people or cut off when they're speaking but I've learnt to try and not to and apologise if I do?
I get an intense urge to do things at times like recently it's been that I became obsessed with the idea of getting a lizard and would spend too much money just to make sure I can have one? Like Iose
control and desperately want things...
Just wondering... Does it sound like it could be more than anxiety? I really get scared to meet new people...
Thanks for reading
