Cleanliness OCD is STILL bugging me

I had 16 psychology sessions on the NHS and was getting better but they finished months ago and although I'm not as bad as I used to be I'm still struggling a lot with the cleanliness OCD thoughts.

When my mum visits my flat I'm paranoid about her spilling wee on the floor in the bathroom when she uses it, or getting some on her hands and then touching other things, or not washing her hands properly and touching other things.

So when she leaves I'll often disinfect with Dettol the toilet seat, the floor near the toilet, any handles she's touched, bits of chairs she's sat in.

It's hard to relax and it upsets her too me asking her not to touch things much because of my paranoia. 

I wish I know how to stop believing I'm going to get really ill if I don't do all this.

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  • I do understand this as I've had really bad contamination OCD after the birth of my two youngest daughters (As well as checking OCD numerous times), exceptionally bad after the birth of my youngest, I had to go on meds for 6 months to get it under control. With me, the fear is of germs, with my youngest it was specifically cold sore germs which is vaguely understandable as newborns can die if they catch a cold sore but where it got really silly was that I'd worry that someone with a cold sore might have touched something in the supermarket that I'd picked up which might then transfer onto my youngest when I got home and cause her to become ill. There are many other ridiculously over anxious examples that I could give you of my OCD thinking over that period of time but I'd take up the whole page! In a nutshell my OCD had absolutely gone through the roof. All this resulted in my spending hours a days cleaning down everything in my house like door handles; taps, toilets, doors, basically any hard surface; doing ridiculous amounts of laundry and washing my hands far far too much, they were so cracked and sore and split it was untrue. So yeah, I get it, it's frustrating when OCD happens! If my contamination OCD was playing up then I'd be doing the same. I totally understand your line of thinking and why you're doing what you're doing but I also know how 'at the mercy of OCD' we can get when it flares up like this and it's not a nice feeling is it?

    Do you still have the paperwork that you were given during the NHS psychology sessions? Would it help to read through the information again and how to challenge your OCD thinking patterns? Or has it gone beyond that point? Do you think that medication might be the answer?

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  • I do understand this as I've had really bad contamination OCD after the birth of my two youngest daughters (As well as checking OCD numerous times), exceptionally bad after the birth of my youngest, I had to go on meds for 6 months to get it under control. With me, the fear is of germs, with my youngest it was specifically cold sore germs which is vaguely understandable as newborns can die if they catch a cold sore but where it got really silly was that I'd worry that someone with a cold sore might have touched something in the supermarket that I'd picked up which might then transfer onto my youngest when I got home and cause her to become ill. There are many other ridiculously over anxious examples that I could give you of my OCD thinking over that period of time but I'd take up the whole page! In a nutshell my OCD had absolutely gone through the roof. All this resulted in my spending hours a days cleaning down everything in my house like door handles; taps, toilets, doors, basically any hard surface; doing ridiculous amounts of laundry and washing my hands far far too much, they were so cracked and sore and split it was untrue. So yeah, I get it, it's frustrating when OCD happens! If my contamination OCD was playing up then I'd be doing the same. I totally understand your line of thinking and why you're doing what you're doing but I also know how 'at the mercy of OCD' we can get when it flares up like this and it's not a nice feeling is it?

    Do you still have the paperwork that you were given during the NHS psychology sessions? Would it help to read through the information again and how to challenge your OCD thinking patterns? Or has it gone beyond that point? Do you think that medication might be the answer?

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