So, yes I'm of an age where everybody is married and has kids. The thing is even though I want what they have - a normal life I just don't want a partner. I've worked out over the years that I am gay bit gay people marry and have children so its not my sexuality that is holding me back. I just don't want to share my life with anyone and I dont desire closeness physically or emotionally. I am sure this is my autism. Does anyone else feel the same?