Post Diagnosis Blues

This is a bit of a delayed reaction as I was actually diagnosed last December. I thought that I’d managed to avoid being too emotionally ‘affected’ by the diagnosis. However, I’ve had a bit of a vulnerable feeling creeping up on me for the past couple of weeks and it’s hit me full thwack today! I’m struggling with how autism makes me and I’m struggling with how the combined effect of brain injury plus autism makes me. I feel like the most stupid person in the world right now, someone who just goes through life blindly trusting people, always trying to see the best in people, never able to see when people are just playing me. I usually always try to keep positive and upbeat but I’m just feeling really overwhelmed by how socially naive my dual neurological diagnosis makes me. 

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  • Sorry to hear you are down Kit, you bring a lot to the forum, and are one of the most genuine people I've had the pleasure to meet here.

    I had fallout from diagnosis too. Started second guessing everything about myself. It's hard. I've said it before here but you can kind of lose yourself in it all. "Did X,Y,or Z happen because I'm autistic", "Do I appear as X, Y, or Z because I'm autistic" and the list goes on.

    As far as I can say I just see you as a good person, strong, and considerate.

    You are the same person you were before diagnosis. Don't let the vacuum of self-doubt, and second guessing your every move put you into a spiral. Second guessing the rest of the world can make you paranoid, and alienate you.

    You know what works for you, and you are only just finding out how to improve the stuff that doesn't. Try not to create problems, just work on solutions.

    I hope this is a blip for you.

    I usually always try to keep positive and upbeat but I’m just feeling really overwhelmed by how socially naive my dual neurological diagnosis makes me. 

    Yeah, you are upbeat and positive. That's a good thing. Just think that if you weren't you wouldn't have got through life up to this point. As for being naive I really don't see it, you are pretty savvy! You've given me solid advice before, lots.

    A diagnosis is a head *** at stages, but it's just a piece of paper. It expliains a bit of stuff but doesn't change who we are deep down. A wise lady once told me after my diagnosis "I have autism, autism doesn't have me". That put things into perspective for me, things started to make sense when I applied it to myself.

    Stay being you, the world is better for it.

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  • Sorry to hear you are down Kit, you bring a lot to the forum, and are one of the most genuine people I've had the pleasure to meet here.

    I had fallout from diagnosis too. Started second guessing everything about myself. It's hard. I've said it before here but you can kind of lose yourself in it all. "Did X,Y,or Z happen because I'm autistic", "Do I appear as X, Y, or Z because I'm autistic" and the list goes on.

    As far as I can say I just see you as a good person, strong, and considerate.

    You are the same person you were before diagnosis. Don't let the vacuum of self-doubt, and second guessing your every move put you into a spiral. Second guessing the rest of the world can make you paranoid, and alienate you.

    You know what works for you, and you are only just finding out how to improve the stuff that doesn't. Try not to create problems, just work on solutions.

    I hope this is a blip for you.

    I usually always try to keep positive and upbeat but I’m just feeling really overwhelmed by how socially naive my dual neurological diagnosis makes me. 

    Yeah, you are upbeat and positive. That's a good thing. Just think that if you weren't you wouldn't have got through life up to this point. As for being naive I really don't see it, you are pretty savvy! You've given me solid advice before, lots.

    A diagnosis is a head *** at stages, but it's just a piece of paper. It expliains a bit of stuff but doesn't change who we are deep down. A wise lady once told me after my diagnosis "I have autism, autism doesn't have me". That put things into perspective for me, things started to make sense when I applied it to myself.

    Stay being you, the world is better for it.

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