Post Diagnosis Blues

This is a bit of a delayed reaction as I was actually diagnosed last December. I thought that I’d managed to avoid being too emotionally ‘affected’ by the diagnosis. However, I’ve had a bit of a vulnerable feeling creeping up on me for the past couple of weeks and it’s hit me full thwack today! I’m struggling with how autism makes me and I’m struggling with how the combined effect of brain injury plus autism makes me. I feel like the most stupid person in the world right now, someone who just goes through life blindly trusting people, always trying to see the best in people, never able to see when people are just playing me. I usually always try to keep positive and upbeat but I’m just feeling really overwhelmed by how socially naive my dual neurological diagnosis makes me. 

Parents
  • yeah  I get that totally. I'm in a bit of a down phase at the mo, and am almost at the 1 year anniversary (maybe that's partly why...). I'm struggling to decide whether I am naive, care too much, others are too blase, care too little, can't decide if people are fobbing me off or just busy, keep doubting myself, etc etc

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  • yeah  I get that totally. I'm in a bit of a down phase at the mo, and am almost at the 1 year anniversary (maybe that's partly why...). I'm struggling to decide whether I am naive, care too much, others are too blase, care too little, can't decide if people are fobbing me off or just busy, keep doubting myself, etc etc

Children
  • thanks    and  @cloudy    I guess it's just coz it;s really busy at work, lots of change coming up etc etc. All throws me a bit!

  • The first year or so was hard for me, a lot of questions, but in the end you are still the same person. Hope things pick up for you.

  • Sorry to hear that you're having a down phase too! The weird thing is I have a good amount of friends and a busy social life, I've made other autistic friends since realising my own autism and a some of my friends that I already had are either in the process of getting assessed/diagnosed or have self diagnosed. So I'm in good company. I think I've started an epidemic though! But I'm in that horrible self doubting headspace at the moment, where I'm questioning if people really are my friends or do they just spend time with me out of pity or because they find my obliviousness entertaining! I mean how would I know, given that I can't read people? I know it will eventually pass, I'm just feeling a bit bleugh at the moment!