I am wondering if anyone can give me advice please?
I work two jobs in the same school, part teaching, part another non teaching role. I have a High Functioning Autism diagnosis
The non teaching role is by far the most demanding of my time during the working day. The teaching role is paid roughly £20 more than the other role.
In October, I experienced a massive meltdown which landed me in hospital for most of the night with suicidal tendencies and complete food and drink strike, over being unexpectantly being told to teach dueing my technician hours (not the first time, but certainly the most damaging to myself).
I came in and was suitably noted as being in a very poor frame of mind to fulfill my job and had to go home. My back to work interview had to go down as 'anxiety' as it seems HR have no checkbox for autism related issues.
My doctor wrote a letter to my work saying I should be put on limited duties for a number of weeks. Work rejected it as 'not possible'. My doctor then wrote a second letter saying I should be allowed breaks to calm down if necessary, and some flexibility on the illness policy regarding when meltdowns occur, and both options were shot down as (in their words) 'you aren't off enough times to trigger any occupational health anyway'.
A few weeks later, I was once again asked to teach above my hours (in my other jobs time), when I asked if I'll get the time back, I was told no, and its 'swings and roundabouts'. This once again set me off on a smaller episode of which I managed to just about battle through during the day.
A week after I was again asked to teach above my hours (in my other jobs time), I once again asked will I get the hours back, and was shouted at not to bother doing it then, and that I was being very selfish. This itself set me off on a smaller episode that I managed to conceal. I am lucky that my office space is a small cupbaord under the stairs where I am away from the hustle and bustle of the main office.
To get the the present situation, I have once again been told I am teaching in my other jobs time, yet no one has bothered to even inform me (I am just having things sent to me randomly!) I have already taken medication to try and control my reactions, but the bottom line is I am already so coiled up I am almost certain I will react badly when I go in in the morning. I feel I cannot raise the question of getting the hours back again after the last two attempts (one failed and the other incited a backlash), and so I feel the only way out of affecting my wellbeing is to see how I wake up (if I manage to sleep) and see if I need to call in sick.
Then I have to face another back to work interview... What do I say in that??
Thank you for any advice you can give me....
Yours sincerely, 'just about holding it together' half medicated semi meltdown phase me.
