Discovery 1 - Realisation

Deckard: She doesn't know?!
Tyrell: She's beginning to suspect, I think.
Deckard: Suspect? How can it not know what it is?

Rachel was a replicant, a manufactured being identical in nearly every way to a human. Memories of a past and a childhood she never had were implanted into her mind. She wasn't told by her maker that she was not human. Then she met a man who was employed to kill others of her kind who became unbalanced and dangerous, and he confirmed what she had begun to suspect.

When I found out I was an Aspie, it felt like something had been kept from me. My past life before that realisation now feels like the implanted memories of someone else's life. How could I not know what I was? Since then I have researched, mused, puzzled & cross-referenced and it's starting to become clearer. 

The main thing that has puzzled me has been "communication problems" . I really thought I was a good communicator. But it's much more nuanced and complicated than I thought. I'm going to keep this post fairly short so others can respond and share their thoughts and feelings at the point of " realisation" . So I will start another discussion thread called "Discovery 2 - Let's talk about communication"

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  • I think that the diagnosis has confirmed what I always knew but tried so hard to hide.  In that respect I feel more like the main character in Gattaca, having to hide my true nature in order to make a living.  The trouble was that this went so far that I was also hiding things from myself, or at least forcing them down just so's I could continue.  

    The point of realisation - issues in the next generation that held a mirror to my fake world.  

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  • I think that the diagnosis has confirmed what I always knew but tried so hard to hide.  In that respect I feel more like the main character in Gattaca, having to hide my true nature in order to make a living.  The trouble was that this went so far that I was also hiding things from myself, or at least forcing them down just so's I could continue.  

    The point of realisation - issues in the next generation that held a mirror to my fake world.  

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