Discovery 1 - Realisation

Deckard: She doesn't know?!
Tyrell: She's beginning to suspect, I think.
Deckard: Suspect? How can it not know what it is?

Rachel was a replicant, a manufactured being identical in nearly every way to a human. Memories of a past and a childhood she never had were implanted into her mind. She wasn't told by her maker that she was not human. Then she met a man who was employed to kill others of her kind who became unbalanced and dangerous, and he confirmed what she had begun to suspect.

When I found out I was an Aspie, it felt like something had been kept from me. My past life before that realisation now feels like the implanted memories of someone else's life. How could I not know what I was? Since then I have researched, mused, puzzled & cross-referenced and it's starting to become clearer. 

The main thing that has puzzled me has been "communication problems" . I really thought I was a good communicator. But it's much more nuanced and complicated than I thought. I'm going to keep this post fairly short so others can respond and share their thoughts and feelings at the point of " realisation" . So I will start another discussion thread called "Discovery 2 - Let's talk about communication"

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  • My realisation arguably was watching 'Blade runner'. The scene when they point that device at her iris.

    It was before I ever heard of any SEN, conditions or autism. I was totally blank on that. But when I watched that movie it deeply affected me. It touched me very personally. I realised that I was like her, hidden in plain sight, human but somehow people find all sort of devices to find me, to track me down and to target me with bullying, harassment, abuse. Somehow there is no way to hide. They have the device to detect me. They just find me as if they were hunting me.

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  • My realisation arguably was watching 'Blade runner'. The scene when they point that device at her iris.

    It was before I ever heard of any SEN, conditions or autism. I was totally blank on that. But when I watched that movie it deeply affected me. It touched me very personally. I realised that I was like her, hidden in plain sight, human but somehow people find all sort of devices to find me, to track me down and to target me with bullying, harassment, abuse. Somehow there is no way to hide. They have the device to detect me. They just find me as if they were hunting me.

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