I was recently diagnosed and told I was Autistic, today before I went to work, my usual routine was disrupted , so I was feeling upset. I got to work but could not really concentrate on anything and at times I felt like crying. I managed to calm myself and think I might get through the day with some effort. However, I got a copy of my report from my assessment and when I started reading it I started crying and felt terrible and had to leaver work.
I know things weren't right with me before I got the letter, so I am wondering if what happened to me today had anything to with my condition, or was it something completely different.
Sorry to hear this. I am off work with stress at the moment. I was having an OK day on Monday until the manager who has been bullying me emailed me. I was really shocked because before Xmas it was agreed I did not have to have direct contact with her until the situation has been investigated and resolved. A few minutes after that I received my draft diagnostic report via email. Reading it brought home to me how many challenges I have faced in the course of my life. I got quite upset.
in answer to your question as you were already feeling upset, and you were at work struggling to cope, reading the letter could easily have tipped you over the edge into meltdown. The way my psychologist explained it is that there are building blocks of stress making up a wall, when the wall reaches a certain height we can't cope and get overwhelmed.
I am feeling a bit better now, although my stress wall is still quite high so i could easily get overwhelmed again. Earlier I had a Union rep telling me I can't recognise emotions in other people because I am autistic! Outrageous! She is the worst kind of pseudo expert - because she has worked with autistic people and bought into some of the myths she thinks she understands us. But the way she behaves shows she does not. This morning she promised to phone before 11am, and phoned at 11.30am. When I had an Absence Management meeting with a manager at work she was 45 minutes late and she only arrived after I phoned her office to ask where she was!
We have to put up with a great deal as autistic people so it is hardly surprising that we get upset. How are you feeling about your diagnosis? I am up, down and all over the place but gradually feeling like things are calming down. It has helped me most of all to read positive, empowering accounts of ASD written by autistic people.
I do hope you are feeling better now.
If you like routines, which many autistic people do, and your routine is disrupted, then you are going to be off. Call it a melt down or what you want but depending on the disruption and how important that particular routine is to you etc, you will either recover quickly, for example, you might just need to go somewhere quite and have a good cry, then get back on with your day or you might need a prolonged period of recovery.
How do you usually recover from disruptions?
And the report will show you that there's nothing wrong with you, as you had previously thought, so once you've processed the information pertaining to the diagnosis and you've taken time to come to terms and accept it, you'll never feel like there's anything wrong with you again :) exciting times ahead for you. Best of luck on your journey.
Are you saying you 'do' understand the emotions of others? I don't even know my own so I don't have a clue about other people's.How do you understand other people's emotions? I'm in awe that you can do it but my curious mind wants to know how? It confuses my brain even thinking about it! lol! Probably because I'm so rubbish at it.
I can understand some things, sometimes I get things a bit (or wildly :-) wrong, but some things I just don't pick up on. I can feel my own emotions, although sometimes I have difficulty understanding what they're about, but they're also not "very well calibrated" so some things which should probably provoke a big emotional response don't seem to, and some things which should really only be a very small emotional response provokes a response out of all proportion. Meh!
I don't necessarily understand other people's emotions in a cognitive sense but I pick up on things like anxiety or extreme sadness, concealed anger - it's like they are contagious. I can also sense the real emotion the person may be trying to cover up - so if someone is being sugary sweet but is actually furious it affects me really badly. Of course I may be totally wrong about this, but I don't think so. I seem to know when someone is suffering and feel as if I am in pain myself. I can't watch violent films or news programmes about suffering. My granny was the same. We just thought she was a sensitive soul.
Yeah, lol, I can relate to all that :)
Oh yeah, I can do that. I can read energies. And I’d never watch a violent film either, there only intent is to help people be happy with violence and I never want to be happy with violence and I don’t understand anybody wanting to watch violent films or news programmes etc etc or any television at all ~ apart from Christmas movies ;) I have watched sad films in the past when I’ve sensed I needed a good cry but it wouldn’t come out, but violent and scary films are definitely a no no for me.