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I work in a office building. I'm one of three women and a man. My job is to answer the phone and use a computer, my day consists of me typing, speaking on the phone and engaging in conversation (help!) with my work colleagues. My friend April who works next to me is really nice and I think she knows there's something different about me because she seems to give me a sort of comforting smile a lot of the time. Work is hard, every day I spend ages making sure I look right for work and change my clothes and redo my hair about fifty times before I finally leave. When I get to work I spend the day feeling anxious because I know I'll have to engage in workplace communication, either work banter or one of my colleagues will ask me if I have a file or if someone called. This sends me in to a massive brain shutdown moment where I spend the next ten minutes trying to think and communicate at the same time, which results in me not finding the right words and just sort of babbling like a baby.

Working is difficult, mostly because of the amount of things I have to do. Focusing, communicating, being out of my safe zone and *shudders* office meetings where I sometimes have to stand up and talk to my colleagues as well as our boss... Usually after a meeting I end up throwing up in the bathroom and have a mini panic attack.

Does anyone else here work and have similar problems to me?

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  • I work 2 shifts at a dog kennels. I've been there about 3 months, LOVE the residents. Earlier this year I worked at a new Argos store - after the hours / schedule turned out to be totally different than what was promised at the interview, and was taking ages to get back to what I had been promised I gave up. Especially as the guy sorting the rotas spoke to me as if I was a child when I asked. I did my usual of bursting into tears and left there and then.

    The job prior to that had me totally confused about my role until the day I had a mini-breakdown. I may or may not have been moving office, may or may not have been in one team or another, may or may not would have a new boss etc etc etc and it all came to a head when I supposedly said something awful to a colleague which she interpreted as " I can't wait for you to go on maternity leave" when in fact I meant that I was keeping the peace because she was soon to go on maternity leave ie not cause any bad feeling and complain even though that she was bossing me around, whilst only being a colleague not a supervisor. 

    I have just been thinking about applying for new jobs and have looked at my history (16 jobs in 14 years). I will have to cull most of these jobs from my CV and 'stretch' the time I was in those that I keep to look like I can be a reliable employee. I always want to do well but it never seems to work out in the end. t's making me feel anxious just thinking about getting a 'proper' job again. 

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  • I work 2 shifts at a dog kennels. I've been there about 3 months, LOVE the residents. Earlier this year I worked at a new Argos store - after the hours / schedule turned out to be totally different than what was promised at the interview, and was taking ages to get back to what I had been promised I gave up. Especially as the guy sorting the rotas spoke to me as if I was a child when I asked. I did my usual of bursting into tears and left there and then.

    The job prior to that had me totally confused about my role until the day I had a mini-breakdown. I may or may not have been moving office, may or may not have been in one team or another, may or may not would have a new boss etc etc etc and it all came to a head when I supposedly said something awful to a colleague which she interpreted as " I can't wait for you to go on maternity leave" when in fact I meant that I was keeping the peace because she was soon to go on maternity leave ie not cause any bad feeling and complain even though that she was bossing me around, whilst only being a colleague not a supervisor. 

    I have just been thinking about applying for new jobs and have looked at my history (16 jobs in 14 years). I will have to cull most of these jobs from my CV and 'stretch' the time I was in those that I keep to look like I can be a reliable employee. I always want to do well but it never seems to work out in the end. t's making me feel anxious just thinking about getting a 'proper' job again. 

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