Since realising that I was 'differently minded', over one and a half years ago, I have pretty much stripped everything away in order to start my life from scratch.
I am now at a point where I am feeling the need for human interaction outside of the only two people I spend time with at the moment (my daughter and dad).
But do I take the leap and enter the world that I never really saw eye to eye with anyway?
If I do, then do I mask and hope I don't get 'found out', which I have always done and it never works out. As it tends to led me to meltdowns where I can no longer keep the mask up. Or do I take the plunge and just be me, or at least as close to being me as I can manage.
I know I will never find people the traditional way, so I have been looking at groups to join on places like Meetup so as to at least give me a fighting chance. Yet, even this is difficult as so many of them are aimed at the usual audience who enjoy going to packed pubs playing live music and other such events that make me anxious just thinking about.
Maybe I am looking in the wrong places or expecting something that doesn't exist.
Maybe the time is not right for me to start looking for friends etc, if it makes me feel this way?
Sorry for waffling on.
