Not doing to well

I’m sorry to hear that Song. I certainly don’t think that you are crap, though I can’t say I disagree with you in relation to life being crap. 

I hope you can find something to help you feel a little better. Sometimes simple things work well, for example a long walk in the sunshine helped to pick up my mood earlier this week. I also often try a favourite food or activity. I do realise however that sometimes you feel so bad that nothing really helps other than to give it time. Life is hard, and it can take it’s toll, so be kind to yourself (no more calling yourself crap!) and remember you are not alone.

If there’s anything specific you are struggling with then do let me know and I will try my best to help. Take care. 

Life, can you cure that for me? My body is falling apart my brain never worked properly in the first place. I can't do it all any more.

Having a proper answer the diagnosis is meant to make it all a bit better but it hasn't it's worse. Now I can just be dismissed as autistic, special not just different eccentric.

Life, can you cure that for me? My body is falling apart my brain never worked properly in the first place. I can't do it all any more.

Having a proper answer the diagnosis is meant to make it all a bit better but it hasn't it's worse. Now I can just be dismissed as autistic, special not just different eccentric.

That’s why I personally tend to go towards things, as opposed to people, for comfort and happiness.

It's not really that easy though, is it? Surrounding oneself with people who care, understand or even love us, I mean. I struggle to surround myself with anybody, then I certainly can't be picky. Guess I'm not alone with this, I just don't know the others...

Hi Song. You are not crap. None of us are crap, life on the other hand can seem like it sometimes. Or BE crap for a while, but things do move forward and change and thankfully they don't stay crap forever. It's hard to remember that right in the middle of things mind you, to remind ourselves to let these times pass. No, we can't be cured of life but much as it sucks at times the alternative is NOT a more attractive proposition!  

From your post mentioning "being dismissed", it sounds as if something has happened to confirm to you one of my own assertions, not so much that life itself is crap but that People Are Crap. Yeah, I have no real advice about that one. People do suck. Not all of them, of course, but enough of them and in enough positions of power to give me no reason to challenge that assertion. 

Give the average person a tiny bit of power and they don't seem to be able to resist the urge to wield it over someone else out of all proportion to their actual status or expertise. I think admitting our AS status to an NT is an example of this, they seem to see it as an immediate 'promotion' over us. No longer can we legitimately hold a position that challenges theirs because we're 'less than' and can be dismissed without consideration. It's one of the reasons I haven't disclosed my AS to anyone other than my partner and grown-up children. I (apparently) have had enough 'strikes against me' over the years that I've (mostly) successfully challenged loudly over the years but these days I'm just too tired for the fight and refuse to give them any more ammunition. Duck, Puck and Buck em all!! (other capital letters are available) Don't let them grind you down Song.   

I am still on the waiting list for a formal diagnosis but, based on the hunch that you might be going through the same sort of "internal readjustment" I went through a few months back, I'm reposting this image from the web:

ref: www.c2d.co.uk/.../

You and I both know that we can’t be cured of life. I agree that life can be a terribly cruel thing, and that there are many horrors in the world in which we live, but one can usually still find something that will bring them happiness. This is why I made some suggestions of things that bring me happiness in my previous comment, though I appreciate my suggestions may not be suitable for you.

I am sorry your diagnosis has made things worse for you, but remember that it hasn’t changed who you are. I do hope you manage to find something to help you feel a bit better soon.

Thank you for your advice... That wasn't crap and will help. I very much doubt your crap. Being unique and different is something to be proud of. Surround yourself with people who care, understand and love you and I'm sure you will start to feel much better