I feel silly wanting to be assessed for autism

Hi,

I recently started studying counselling in an attempt to try and be a better person, someone who makes other people feel good and correct whatever it is about me that seems to make me so... I don’t know... undesirable as a companion.

As part of the process you are supposed to contemplate the events in your life that have made you the way you are and in spite of the traumas I’ve experienced I kept coming back to the realisation that I was always like that.

I used to embrace being alienated from everyone and was a bit of a ruthless know it all and now as an adult, a wife and a mother I’m different. I’m always trying my best to be welcoming, sociable and supportive but people still treat me the same. I somehow always get people’s backs up.

I recently heard a women on the radio talking about having autism and I was surprised how “normal” she sounded and the symptoms of her autism didn’t seem odd to me at all.

I’ve done online tests which all come back as having some degree of autism. My husband thought it was ridiculous for me to think I was autistic (me too actually!) but when I read out a list of traits of high functioning autism even he had to admit out of about 25 I clearly had 23 of them. The severe aspects of my personality that he doesn’t understand.

I have booked myself in to see the GP but I’m feeling silly. I’m worried they’ll think I’m just looking for an excuse for not being a nice person. I’m scared they’ll refuse to assess me. I’m also a bit scared of not being autistic after having made a fuss.

I guess I’m hoping that someone else felt the same when faced with the prospect of finding out if they were autistic? What did the GP say?

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  • I'very been considering asking for a referral since the end of last year but not plucked up courage yet. My son was diagnosed with Aspergers last year and going through the process with him and learning more about ASD has convinced me I have Autism also. Like you all the tests I've done say it's highly likely I'm on the spectrum.  Good luck if you decide to go ahead.

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  • I'very been considering asking for a referral since the end of last year but not plucked up courage yet. My son was diagnosed with Aspergers last year and going through the process with him and learning more about ASD has convinced me I have Autism also. Like you all the tests I've done say it's highly likely I'm on the spectrum.  Good luck if you decide to go ahead.

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