Fed up

i'm a 29 yr old man with aspergers syndrome I haven't worked for 5 years I live alone have no friends and don't know how to get out of this rut I'm in I'm fed up with ritualistic/repetitive behaviours I see my whole life passing by In front of me I just want it all to go away I just want a normal life I literally do the same thing everyday, wander into town have breakfast come home play games watch t.v this isn't the life I wanted I should have a job a family ect I ******* hate the world

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  • In my shady past, I've tried evening classes in French, German and Russian.  Also did 'AS' levels in Physics, Chemistry and Biology.  Achieved grade As in all three.  Also GCSEs in Computer Science and Accounting ( Also grade As).  The real reason I went was for the company and female company in particular.

    To avoid repetitive behaviour.  I try walking new routes between even familiar places.  Figure out what makes one autistic and try to behave differently to break the pattern.