Published on 12, July, 2020
Does anyone else have difficulty with knowing what they look like, or how they feel? It sounds weird, but I noticed that I rely on other peoples views on what I look like a lot. I was trying to buy a foundation and an assistant helped me. In the shop I was convinced it matched like she said. I tried it on at home and it looks too dark now, but I'm not sure. I was looking at my face and I just can't tell. Without peoples opinions on things I feel like there isn't much there. I know some people use that against me to manipulate me sometimes, but it takes a while for me to realise that. When I was younger I had a different hairstyle every months as people would tell me what would look good. It took me a while, but then I realised I didn't like being treated like a doll. This is a confused ramble, but does anyone know what I mean? My sense of self is so weak, I feel like I can be convinced of anything by anyone to the point of needing their direction. \part of me knows it shouldn't be like that.
I don't relate completely but I understand having little to no self worth. I understand kind of following what others say to do, but with me it's mental related like this voice says don't do your hair or eat this instead of that.
Sounds confusing for you. I hope you can work everything out for yourself.
All the best.
Do you know where your lack of self worth comes from? I cant work that out. Never had any and have no reason to think like that either
It began and comes from when my mum first got sick. She was always there for me and I think I exhausted her so I felt and still feel responsible for her getting sick. That's when it started and since then it's worse. I hate myself for a lot of things and now my mental health is suffering I get people in my ear all the time reminding me of how rubbish I am.
It's good you don't think that way about yourself. That's real positive. I can't remember last time I was like that.
All the best x
Sorry, no it's me! I'm not great at processing how people mean it's a real issue for me. Sorry.
Lucky you though! I wish I'd been born without them. I mean I think it would be a lot easier not having them that way you can't lose them.
Oh no, i wasnt clear. I have no self esteem or sense of self worth. Was born without it for some weird reason