• Replies 8 replies
  • Subscribers 7 subscribers
  • Views 237 views
  • Users 0 members are here
Options
Related
Hints and tips
  • To quote someone's message, first select/highlight the relevant text, and then use the Quote button that appears
  • To "mention" someone, type @ followed by the start of the forum name, and choose from the list; that person will get a notification of being mentioned

My body is shutting down

NAS71232

I have Barrett's Esophagus and diverticulitis. I have a hernia in my throut too. Sorry if this post is weird. I'm on meds.

They said they have only seen this diverticular serverity in people over 90 and they will have to remove a section of my colon eventually. I'm 48. I have to sleep all the time and the pain in my throat is getting really bad 24/7. I have no energy. I read that my body is constantly fighting my swollen colon, so that's why I'm drowsy and need sleep all the time. They said at the hospital that I need to get regular endoscopys to see if it has turned to cancer. I think it has now. I have an endoscopy in a month or two. There are other illnesses that I can't remember ATM due to my medication. I have cysts on either my kidneys or my liver.

I have no children or a relationship. I'm undiagnosed with autism and ADHD. I don't mind passing. It would be a relief due to all my ailments :)

I would like to donate my organs when I pass if any are still usable. If I can save a life before I go, I would be very happy. There are many people on the waiting list for organs. I'm not sure if anything inside me is savagable, but I would like to offer it if it helps. If I do have cancer, I'm assuming all of my organs will be useless?

I'm living with my sick mother. I need to move out before I get very sick. I don't want her to see that. She has carers twice a day and friends, so she isn't alone.

I would like to live alone in peace. I have difficulty connecting. There is a lady at my GP practice in social housing? that said I can talk to her. I can't live in shared accomodation. I just want a garden. I know I won't get it. 

My bucket list is Thailand and Texas for the BBQ. I can't eat -in as I know I'll puke, so it will have to be a takeaway. I have trouble eating. I just want to taste it before I go.

Sorry if this thead is gross. 

I know I won't get my own place with a garden, so I'll just try  to visit Thailand and Texas, then pass on. I will be very ill on these holidays and will have to renew my passport and save money for the tickets. 

I wish I could just stay in Thailand and pass there, but I don't have the cash to do that. 

Parents

  • Hi NAS71232,

    Thank you for sharing how you’re feeling.  

    I’m really sorry to hear things have been so difficult for you.  

    It sounds like are going through a lot. 

    The community is here to listen and support you as best we can.  

    If it’s not an emergency but you’re still struggling, speaking to a health professional can help. If your GP is closed, you can call 111 for NHS support. In England, Wales and Scotland, you can now choose option 2 to speak directly with mental health professionals: https://www.nhs.uk/nhs-services/urgent-and-emergency-care-services/when-to-use-111/.  

     Other free, confidential support includes: 

    • Samaritans – Call 116 123, 24 hours a day 
    • SANEline – 0300 304 7000 (4.30-10.30pm daily)  
    • Shout – Text 85258, 24 hours a day 
    • Mind Infoline – 0300 123 3393 (Mon–Fri, 9am-6pm) 

    We hope some of these resources help and we’re here if you want to share more.  

    If you feel able, let us know how you’re doing.  

    Remember, you deserve support and there are people who want to help.  

    Stay connected as it can make a real difference.  

     

    Kind regards 

    Suzanne Mod

Reply

  • Hi NAS71232,

    Thank you for sharing how you’re feeling.  

    I’m really sorry to hear things have been so difficult for you.  

    It sounds like are going through a lot. 

    The community is here to listen and support you as best we can.  

    If it’s not an emergency but you’re still struggling, speaking to a health professional can help. If your GP is closed, you can call 111 for NHS support. In England, Wales and Scotland, you can now choose option 2 to speak directly with mental health professionals: https://www.nhs.uk/nhs-services/urgent-and-emergency-care-services/when-to-use-111/.  

     Other free, confidential support includes: 

    • Samaritans – Call 116 123, 24 hours a day 
    • SANEline – 0300 304 7000 (4.30-10.30pm daily)  
    • Shout – Text 85258, 24 hours a day 
    • Mind Infoline – 0300 123 3393 (Mon–Fri, 9am-6pm) 

    We hope some of these resources help and we’re here if you want to share more.  

    If you feel able, let us know how you’re doing.  

    Remember, you deserve support and there are people who want to help.  

    Stay connected as it can make a real difference.  

     

    Kind regards 

    Suzanne Mod

Children
No Data