Hi, I actually failed to introduce myself at the beginning. I’m sorry, it looks little awkward. I’m not diagnosed and I’m not sure if or when I could get a diagnosis, as my family is not supportive. Currently waiting for my first appointment with a therapist. I have some sense, that I don’t deserve to be here, but I really love this place and its vibe. A lot of topics relate to me or describe perfectly what I experience, I definitely don’t belong to NT world. I always felt lost, not belonging, alone, different, as a kid asking aliens to kidnap me because I suffered in this world, I couldn’t even say why. Having weird interests like magnets and trams, often got labeled as creative, out of the box, very sensitive and shy. I went through severe depression as a teenager and young adult. Only recently the pieces of my life started making sense. Everything happened accidentally, because I heard the word “high functioning autism” in one interview. I got intrigued and checked it. I also recalled hearing some teachers commenting me that my behavior mimics autism, but I’m a female, and it usually affects boys. That stereotype is probably still alive but I hope awareness will defeat it and I really hope, that next generations of autistic children get support, love and validation which I lacked.
Looking forward to connecting with the society.