Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi
My name is Richard. I was recently diagnosed as autistic. I find it hard to relax in groups. Often don’t say much but when I do I sometimes lose it and talk rubbish. (No I’m not doing it now!). I can point back to many events over the years that were bullying in all but name. I worry easily. And you’ll not be surprised I don’t make friends easily. I would forgive anyone for describing me as ‘he who fears everything’. I d rather not say my age but believe my diagnosis came about 45 years too late to serve me well.
That said. 2020 is a year that is going to go down with one of many negatives. I believe the theory of a problem often being an opportunity in disguise is valid and intend to turn this into a positive somehow.
I look forward to hearing from you.
I think most people have a hard time making friends. You're not alone:-)
Welcome!x
i used to do that occasionally "lose it and talk rubbish.". I used ti be worse now i tend to say less because when i start i can get into a flow and talk rubbish. which afterwards i find embarrasing because there may have been a load of lies included.
my way forward
say less but be more meaningful
in zen -- if u have nothing meaningful to say keep quiet
but even the above paragraph at top is wrong in that i must not look at my past but focus on the present moment and then move forward as a new person and through baby eyes
in short forget about your past u cant touch it or change it..
Focus on right now then repeat as u go forward.
ok stopping 'cause i go all Zeny