Unemployed again!

omg i am so glad that someone understands it and went through it 

i got sectioned twice under the s136 and once under s2 and i know how difficult it is 

it is so hard especially when they have no idea about autism 

i got injected by anti-psychotic 

it is horrible 

i am left terrified and totally traumatized  

Damn that’s horrible.

yeah it really was 

well it is a long story 

i lived in london from when i was born which is 2004

my mum moved us to manchester 2014

my my and dad separated 2012 / 2013 

so when we moved to manchester my mum had 5 kids to look after in a 2 and a half bedroom house which is tiny for 6 people 

we would constantly get abused and neglected by her 

she would take her shoes off and hit us and being really horrible

i would look after the kids and cook and take them to the park whilst my brother would clean the house 

my dad would come over every 2 weeks for the weekend which because i am Jewish is called Shabbat and should be celebrated every week 

there was a rule and a formal agreement from the divorce jewish lawyers that my dad would take us on holiday every year 

so the first year went great and for me was a nightmare but as long as no-one knows that's great

my mum would always go to israel to see her family 

fast forward to the year of 2016 

again my mum would stay up all night packing and i would be there to help her and then she would hand us over to my dad 

that year it was totally different, i packed all 5 suitcases and i helped to pack hers 

at that time i was 12 and 3 and a half months

and she told me don't tell anyone but i am never returning and yeah she didn't 

the whole holiday i was terrified thinking how the rest of the family will find out 

so my dad found out from his solicitor and the family were just told not sure by whom

fast forward a bit, i went to a foster carer that my dad new from the community 

i loved it there 

and then we lived at dads at 2017 and i had a lot of change and responsibility 

and then i mentally crashed 

had too much useless proffesionals with the wrong help at the very wrong time 

so i went to A&E and said that i want to go into care 

and 11 days of being in there 

i met the perfect foster carer and my mental health kept on escalating and then that placement didn't work 

so i went to a few others 

add a dozen of hospital admissions and yeah 

they found a residential home which i have been nearly a year which ois the longest placement i have had 

so yeah that is how 

Just wondering how did you come to being there

yeah 

why???

You in a children’s home?

lol 

Thanks that means a lot I’m wise in my head silly in person

well you come across wise and knowledgable 

you can do anything you want as long as you are willing to put the work in 

I hope it does happen I don’t have a dream job unless becoming a Jedi became real.

and that is alright 

don't do something you don't love 

and this is just my dream whether it happens or not that is out of my powers 

Damn you want to be a police officer I’m just a humble shop worker on furlough 

yeah i know 

what do you think ?! that i spend my time saying i want to be a police officer without knowing these all????

yeah i know 

i spent a lot of time researching and i have studied psychology 

so i get it 

i ask a lot of questions 

so i do know what i am in for and what i want 

u have seen that the police arrest people on request  by someone but they do other things

1. paper work of their daily tasks/arrests attendance at incidents and traffic accident evidence

2 they appear in court to give evidence 

3 they have to tell people when someone they love is dead

4 arrest people sometimes someone they know eg went to school with

5 rescue people from rivers and buildings on fire --- give cpr 

the police go everywhere and see things which are pretty traumatic. Your police training does not prepare u for everything "out there" on the streets.  I  am  not trying to put you off the opposite i want you to understand the job of a police man  so u can make sense at a selection board.

why would you do that???

i mean you would get all the training that you need 

no i couldnt be i would shoot someone 

no you wouldn't 

i think you are so cool

and yeah i will try my hardest 

are you a police officer???

if someone calls u names, shouts abuse at you u must be able to stay calm and  not loose your temper/control. If some threatens violence u must not react and remain calm.

that above  is like a test they carry out in police selection ( and army selection ).  

what do u think ,,,, could u resist verbal abuse and not react ?

with practice u can get better at it. I have been trained in it.

but i would be a terrible policeman lol

if someone calls u names, shouts abuse at you u must be able to stay calm and  not loose your temper/control. If some threatens violence u must not react and remain calm.

that above  is like a test they carry out in police selection ( and army selection ).  

what do u think ,,,, could u resist verbal abuse and not react ?

with practice u can get better at it. I have been trained in it.

but i would be a terrible policeman lol

this , what does this mean ?

Leah said:

no i am talking to a friend but we love each other again

yeah i did get some work done 

well technically i get all of them done 

forgiving what???

you did this before.

before leaviing u throw a hand grenade into the room

I am not sure of ur'e intention or aim

but never mind i forgive like u forgave me

it is a fine example of self-sabotage 

so did u get your work done ?

do u need help with your work ?

no i am talking to a friend but we love each other again

i test software. The websites I test are pretty much like this one.

are u watching TV?

that's good 

probably a good think then 

what do you work as??

NO WORK i can sit on my ass and drink tea and play chess and wander around the internet

i used to go out boozing but i have stopped that now.

i hate the weekend 

why do you like it?

its the weekend ! hooray !

lmao, bye 

ok be bad 

bye

no i will be bad !!

bye 

ok i'll let u go for now 

its been a nice chat

wishing u well

have a good day

be good 

see u later

yeah

u mean not literally, but metaphorically yes

but i love unliteral as a new word

not litrelly but unlitrelly yeah

are u hand chuffed to them ?

yeah of course 

i am on a 1:1 supervision 

when u go out, say swimming, is there someone with you ?

yeah