My introduction

Hello,

I recently joined and thought I’d introduce myself. I’m in my 40’s and have recently requested a referral from my GP as I think I’ve been trying to ‘deal’ with some autistic characteristics.

A little about me:

• I’m ambitious
• creative
• self taught in a lot of what I do
• get engrossed in projects to the point where I don’t hear telephone calls - it can take me a while to get back into what I’m doing if I get interrupted to go and do something else.
• like to keep records (games mostly) and catalogue things
• i have a keen memory for movie scripts and scenes
• quick to anger when people don’t understand simple tasks I give them
• get frustrated easily to the point where I get so angry and frustrated that I start hitting myself - usually in the jaw or sometimes the thighs
• in social situations (outside of my hobbies) I can’t/don’t engage with people, even colleagues and can’t wait to leave
• have trouble maintaining eye contact - I find it easier to look at their nose or teeth, or just not at them I’m general

While I am still waiting for a referral I thought it best to come here to try and find some feedback and answers from anyone who is either feeing the same as I do (having been asked if I think I may have some form of autism), or anyon3 who has been given a positive diagnosis that can maybe help. 

when I think back, I believe a lot of the problems I am having have been with me for a long time, but they only seem to manifest more nowadays. Plus I’m more aware of some behaviours but struggle to control them when things are particularly tough.