How is limerence broken? I can't do it any longer. She occupies so many of my waking thoughts. She's often the first thought upon waking. I'll be honest - I've developed an honesty and lack of embarrassment about my life since looking in to Autism - and say I've pushed away every woman I ever cared about because of RSD. I've pushed away friends too, or just not kept in touch. There was one guy who I actively avoided because he would boss me around and I couldn't stand up to him and tell him I didn't like it, so I avoided him.
I'd never heard of limerence until this year, and with all my research it's easy to identify that it's been a long term partner to me. RSD has too.
Couple them together and it's possibly the most devastating thing I think I could ever experience. I know I've experienced it before, but knowing what it is now almost makes it worse.
I've tried to be passive, to keep my distance. I'd got on well with her, as colleagues, and she seemed to take exception to that. She would actively draw me back in. I'm not saying she was trying to tell me she was interested, but my limerence might have said that.
I don't envy anyone who experiences this painful combination of things. But she is moving jobs soon, so I won't see her. In a way it's a good thing but it also feels painful. Hopefully I can heal.
How did people who've experience this deal with it? Is it often that they move away?