I don’t understand how people with disabilities who are on benefits can survive in the world without support from family. I’m on benefits because of my autism and my mental health and I hate it. I’ve tried working, in the past, and it went horribly. I got burnt out and it affected my mental health and I was sectioned because of it.
That was 2021 and I haven’t worked since then. I’m lucky to be on PIP and I have my parents, though they are both in poor health and that’s a worry.
Ideally, like my brothers I would love to own my own house. It’s just me but I hate not having a place that I’ll always be safe in and have security. But there’s no way with my current situation I would ever be able to afford a place. Where I live with my parents we rent the house and I’m painfully aware as in when it’s just me I’ll have nowhere to go.
That’s a truly terrifying thought for me and when I was in hospital I thought about it a lot. Me, on my own and no security for the future.
One idea I have had is there’s this really old farmhouse on the land where we rent our current house. It’s old, like from the 50s/60s I think but it’s in a bad state of disrepair. The whole farm is in neglect and needs doing up. The landowner who we know and get on well with has no interest in the house, he’s just waiting for it to fall down.
I know it needs work, but I’ve looked it up online and know I can learn to do the majority of the work.
I have thought about writing to him and asking if he would be interested in selling it to me. But I don’t want to be too forward or to sound too pushy. I also worry in case he says no. At the moment I have some hope that he’ll say yes but if he doesn’t then I lose hope and literally have no clue what I’ll do in the future.
It’s such a worry for me and I don’t know what to do about it.
