Recently diagnosed - struggling

Hello!

I'm new here, I was diagnosed with 'high functioning autism' about 5 weeks ago, I just got my diagnostic report on Sunday.

I'm a 32 year old woman and never felt like I fit in, like I didn't connect with people and being around people drained me, sure, I can mask and say the right things and smile but it's all an act. I've always had issues in jobs and have had attendance issues and sick leave for stress in every job I've had. I've been on anti-depressants for ten years.

The diagnosis makes so much sense and I hope it will eventually allow me to be easier on myself and not so harsh on myself for struggling with things. I do feel like I'm struggling to come to terms with the diagnosis, it's a relief in some ways that there's a reason for my behaviors but it's also like....I don't know how to manage. I don't know how to get out of this cycle of stress and overwhelm and as I'm sure we're all aware, there's no support for autistic adults.

If you've read all of this then I sincerely thank you. I feel quite alone. 

  • Hi and welcome to the community. I wish you well at least now as you say you have an answer to why certain things are a real struggle. I’m still very much in learning and understanding more. I certainly find this forum very useful and helpful. 

  • Hello illustrated.lady and welcome to the forum.

    I hope it is not inappropriate to say congratulations on your diagnosis. It is common for people to have mixed feelings about diagnosis.

    I am in my 60s and received my diagnosis last December, it was a huge relief as it explained the depression, anxiety and behavioural ‘issues’ that I struggled with during my entire adult life. Diagnosis has lifted a huge burden of shame and guilt that was keeping me suppressed, and like you, I masked for much of the time. 

    I know others will relate to your experiences.

    I hope you enjoy being with us.