So how long does this "acceptance" sh*t take then?

"Glasshopper"; "Man who go to bed with itching bum , wake up with smelly finger".

There is no acceptance, only tolerance.

Looking at the last few posts, are you all male?

Is it possible that male societal pressures are making you feel your diagnosis more strongly?

Oh testicles to you-tube! I couuldn't be bothered to have to deal with servants or you-tube for that matter or a hoard of fans and viewers. I perfer to be selfish with my energy resourses and keep them to myself.

Servants are great, when they are well motivated!

In extreme cases they can be made to fight each other to the death, for the edification and entertainment of one's Youtube Viewers...

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I was diagnosed last year at 49. Huge rollercoaster of emotions, angry, the unfairness, embarrassment, finally understanding all of my issues. I feel a lot better about the whole thing now. I’m still me. If anything I’m kinder to myself when I f&*$% up. I actually think I’m way more adhd than asd and I want to explore a diagnosis this year. I didn’t even contemplate adhd until it was mentioned on my asd diagnosis. 

You’ll get there. 

I can totally relate. I’m in my mid-fifties and was diagnosed about 3 weeks ago. My brain is a trash fire right now. My immediate family have been great, the couple of people I’ve disclosed too have been kind of dicks about it. Uhane’s advice downthread has been quite helpful about forgiving other people, but advice only ever gets you so far. I think we all have to find our own way. The one thing I’ve learned from this forum (prepare for attack of the blindingly obvious) is that autism affects us all different ways, so other people’s experiences as helpful, kind and useful as they often are don’t always apply.

I wonder if there’s value in asking yourself what peace looks like? (At the risk of sounding like a U2 song) What it is that you’re looking for? Apologies if this all sounds pretty bland and self-evident.

Hello Irish. I'm glad you agree with my some of my points.  I'm not going to say where I disagree with your beliefs as needing to debate everything is one my biggest flaws sometimes.  In a free society we are all entitled to our views and often they differ wildly.

I hope you have great day.

When I used to go out socialising on the gay scene, I hated the loud music in gay venues and I hated the feeling of being “tipsy” as I was no longer in control and it was the same with being “high” on one drug or another, so much a part of the gay scene - music at full volume in a gay venue or at a gay pride event does nothing to promote real understanding, because meaningful conversations are prevented from taking place and the programmed narrative of the gay agenda is being relentlessly pushed - an ever increasing number of gay people feel the same way 

I agree with these points as an older gay man late diagnosed - during the last 4 years, we have seen a fundamental change in so many aspects of our world and it’s not for the better where the reality shifted away from a (false) “positive” and where victim-blaming has been a huge thing for at least 40 years - I’ve read books from Louse L Hay after I first came out as gay in my teens in the 80’s and I ended up fundamentally disagreeing with so many of the arguments that she presented and this started me on my long return to my traditional Irish Catholic Patriot traditions and values - I see nothing of any real value in the modern LGBT community and great, immense value in the wisdom in my grandparents generation (I’m 53) and really, in my 30 years in supermarket retailing, living in a socially deprived area, I’ve seen far more truth and wisdom post-Covid than I’ve seen anywhere else - when the harsh truth about so many things came out during Covid, it was heartbreakingly difficult to accept about the state of our world, but given our lived life experiences, we found it easier to accept than our NT peers who were so far in denial that they were unreachable - all of this for me has been a very gradual process and has come with a lot of heartbreak at seeing the “deconstructing” (destruction) of our world by those whose intentions are not sincere nor based in truth 

Well that neatly describes my weekly counseling session!!

shake rattle and roll,  baby!

I was diagnosed in January at the age of 53 so i completely recognise where you are coming from. I have been through a grieving period but i do feel i'm coming out of that. Try to celebrate the small wins whatever they may be. Knowing & understanding yourself better can only be a positive over time. 

I definitely grieved post diagnosis as i don't want to be Autistic, i am learning to live with it now. I completely recognise everything you have written

I am sorry to hear that you are struggling at the moment. I take it antidepressants haven’t worked for you? I hope you find the help you need. I am kind of in the same boat as you to be fair. So your not alone you know.

Probably........or at least, possibly !

Sometimes it's like a Wasjig and the picture on the box isn't what the image of the puzzle is but it's what the people on the box are looking at from their perspective.

I'm sure there's a metaphor in this somewhere

Acceptance of the self not seeking from others, if you do that you're on a hiding to nothing, I think people are drawn to those who accept themselves, you have to be careful though as there are 'a lot of assholes looking for a human being to attach themselves to'

Servents are a pain in the bum, it ends up easier and quicker to do things myself rather than have to explain the minutae of what I want done and how I want it done to people that don't have two brain cells to bang together.

There's loads of stuff in that that makes my shelves resonate...

Fwiw....binaural beats....are VERY important to keeping me sane, some days. It is interesting (sister) that you mention this.  Thank you.