Work again

I have just got an invite for a catch up meeting at work. With the way things are I'm in full anxiety mode. 

Everyone is talking about the bonus they're going to get, I'm not as I was underperforming last year. No one has taken in to consideration that last year i had seven months of weekly therapy in relation to childhood trauma and now having to deal with all of this. 

At the moment I feel i just want to go sick again. But that will make things worse.