Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello. I’m in my thirties and I have always felt different from everyone else. I feel like I am performing my life to everyone else and they are all watching me play a character of a person that isnt really me. I don’t do well in social situations and I am often said to be very quiet because I tend not to speak for fear of saying the wrong thing. I have done lots of AQ tests online and always score quite highly on them. I have mentioned it to my mum but she doesn’t believe I’m autistic. I don’t want to go down the nhs route to get tested as I work in healthcare and I feel it’s a bit too close to home. I hope you will accept me as a part of this group and I look forward to getting to know you all.
Idk if that makes sense (sorry about the waffle)
You sound a bit like me. My problem is different, but I haven't been diagnosed either (I think I am on a list somewhere, but I haven't heard anything at all for over a year). I am under 18 so I am relying on my parents to sort it out for me, but I don't want to do that because I don't have a very communicative relationship with them (I don't talk to them about anything that is important to me). I am also seeking acceptance from people here because I think I am autistic because I have done extensive research and another person in a video who had not been diagnosed identified as autistic and I want to do that too.
I tried to start my own post but I pressed the button and it took me back to what I had written. It made me stressed and I gave up. So I am sorry for replying to other people's posts, but you are more likely to talk to me then I guess.
it is really horrible when that happens
Yeah I don’t tell anyone outside my family now some people are not nice about it.
I do! I love it ️
Yes they would help me I guess.
so if u break your leg they wont help u ?
Yes I work with the GPs
Thanks Nick. I haven’t told anyone apart from my mum that I think I’m autistic- after the way my mum dismissed it, I’m not sure I want to mention it to anyone else.
if course you can ,,, u can go thru your GP is that who your work colleague is ?
I bet you watch friends
Hello, Lucy is my 1976 land Rover, I am Nick, sorry for the confusion. Yes, it is hard but I find most people are understanding when you explain about autism and those that are not, well that is their loss. Do not be so hard on yourself.
Ah thanks. I know you’re right but it would be one of my work colleagues that I would have to go to to ask for a referral, which I’m not sure I really want to do.
Hi Simon lovely to meet you
Hi Lucy lovely to meet you. It’s difficult isn’t it? I’m so scared of people not liking me because I don’t know how to act or what to say with them.
no, please go ahead and go for a diagnosis. You have the same right to access NHS services as anyone else.
Hello welcome to the forum
Hello and wellcome to the community. I too am quiet and find speaking in social situations can be hard as I make mistakes and people are not always as understanding as we would like. I am sure you will meet many people here.
Sorry that should have said diagnosed, not tested