experience with therapist

hi everyone,

I am very concern the way i am being treated by my specialist as I felt they are forcing to adapt the normal enviroment and i am very traumatizing. I had been hurting myself alot these night with lots of bruises and cant sleep due to the depression.

my specialist had been forcing me to put down my special interest in disney characters, fairy tale and costumed characters and adapt the mainstream enviroment. they even force me to interact with someone I don't like (my peers). My peers loves things like sport and watching television whcih i don't like. 

In my world, i like playing with the children and we play together around my area with toys and dolls. the reason i like interacting with the children because they share interest like me. but my specialist is forcing me not to hang out with them because of age difference eventhought no one mind about it. their parent don't bother about this and no one care about this. but they still force me not to hang out with someone who shares interest like me while interact with someone don't have interest like me. they are doing this to me because of my age and i feel like they are bullying me. 

i am very traumatized but no adult are listening to me as they all are on my specialist side just because this lady is a therapist. if i talk to my parent about it, they will punnish me for not being greatful to my specialist. I have no one on my side. I need help.

I am being forced to adapting an enviroment that i don't like. I am very very traumatized.

Does anyone here is on myside and think it's okay of what i like to be doing as i need help.

reminder i am someone at my very late teen.

Parents Reply

  • and about the age difference friendship, are you saying i need to stop outplaying right away now because of my old age, this is pressing my red button?

    No ~ I was stating nothing of the sort. You were imagining that I a said what you were  pretending instead to be the case, even though I stated this:

    Of course not, but as long as your therapist is not discriminating against you as an autistic person who is psychologically maturing at a slower rate than is normally the case for non-autistic people, you are not entitled to discriminate against her on the basis that autism is free pass to do anything you want either. 

    Remember that equality in your situation with your therapist and society in general ~ involves that you can interact with children in terms of a shared interest in Disney toys and games to reasonable extent, and that interacting with more responsible people of your own age is also involved to a reasonable extent ~ in order that you can in a balanced way participate and develop in society as the talented individual that you are, and can more as such be. 

    A reasonable extent of interaction with children involves a reasonable extent of interaction with people about your own age and older also.

    So being that you are not yet as psychologically mature as you are physiologically ~ you need in part to interact with people who are psychologically the same age developmentally as you are, so that you mature with them in the way that children do, and you need also in part to interact with people who are physiologically the same age or older developmentally than you ~ so that you mature with them in the way adults do. 

    The basic problem (it very much seems) is that you have been thinking as many autistic people do in terms of 'absolutes' ~ involving what is called autistic black and white thinking, where everything you want to do (white thinking) involves children and nothing you want to (black thinking) involves adults, and when you previously read me stating that you need a bit of both ~ you only imagined one type of interaction wholly, rather than both partly.

    Is it possible then that your therapist actually requires you to interact a little more with people your own physical age, over time, and as such to interact a little less with children who are your own mental age?

    i do not have to have another meltdown and i dont want a terrible future as this could lead me to a terrible life.

    Well with a slow graduation from just interacting with children, you could also be interacting with adults who will sooner rather later have children themselves ~ or else risk the lonely life thing yourself more possibly?