Published on 12, July, 2020
hi everyone,
I am very concern the way i am being treated by my specialist as I felt they are forcing to adapt the normal enviroment and i am very traumatizing. I had been hurting myself alot these night with lots of bruises and cant sleep due to the depression.
my specialist had been forcing me to put down my special interest in disney characters, fairy tale and costumed characters and adapt the mainstream enviroment. they even force me to interact with someone I don't like (my peers). My peers loves things like sport and watching television whcih i don't like.
In my world, i like playing with the children and we play together around my area with toys and dolls. the reason i like interacting with the children because they share interest like me. but my specialist is forcing me not to hang out with them because of age difference eventhought no one mind about it. their parent don't bother about this and no one care about this. but they still force me not to hang out with someone who shares interest like me while interact with someone don't have interest like me. they are doing this to me because of my age and i feel like they are bullying me.
i am very traumatized but no adult are listening to me as they all are on my specialist side just because this lady is a therapist. if i talk to my parent about it, they will punnish me for not being greatful to my specialist. I have no one on my side. I need help.
I am being forced to adapting an enviroment that i don't like. I am very very traumatized.
Does anyone here is on myside and think it's okay of what i like to be doing as i need help.
reminder i am someone at my very late teen.
I'm not an expert (apart from being autistic and having had lots of therapy and read about it!) but it does strike me that you might be being pushed a bit too hard in a potentially unhelpful way.
Therapy does involve struggle and "pain" if it is to work, as the whole point is to change something and change can be hard. But the ideal outcome for someone with ASD is likely to be different to that for someone without ASD, and if the therapist doesn't adjust accordingly then this can result in more long term pain rather than less.
It's a well-recognised fact (and you can find this on the internet if you need evidence) that not every therapist is right for every person. It doesn't mean they are a bad therapist, just not the right one for you. So it's not helpful for your parents to say "You have a therapist so stop complaining".
i agree with you. in my life, i've been hurt by my therapist alot. they are here to help me but help me to be uncomfortable like grounding me from out playing with my little friends who have share my interest, puting down my special nterest and adapting the enviroment. and if i complained, my parent would give out. that's like communist in my autistic world. my therapist are taking over my autisitc world and mistreat me just like when communist took over russia and mistreated the people.