Published on 12, July, 2020
This is the lowest I've felt since mum passed away in April.
I know it's a new situation, which is bound to be unsettling. I know it takes time and adjustment. I know I'm probably over-reacting to some of the more negative things that have happened this week. I know I need to give things time, etc, etc, etc.
But my gut instinct isn't good. I dread going in. Today, I'm working with the shouty matriarch. I'm just glad it's the weekend.
I certainly don't feel like I want too much more of this.
Morning Tom. I went through similar (not the DWP harassment though) in June/July last year - 5 months after my Mum died (very sudden, no warning at all). I was dealing with the estate, supporting my Dad, looking after my children, putting the house on the market, working, studying for an Open University degree - and my mother in law was diagnosed with early stage *** cancer. I knew in myself I wasn't coping, and my boss was worried about me.
I ended up getting my antidepressant dose increased which has helped. I've got an appointment on Thursday to discuss reducing it.
I wonder if there's a bit of grief that appears about 5 months after death? Certainly that was the worst period.