Published on 12, July, 2020
How do you all make your life feel meaningful? I am 42 single living with parents. No children no great achievements. I wanted to do more but feel life life never got started because mental illness got in the way. I cant save money because I spend when I feel bad which is often. I'm tired of feeling like lofe is going nowhere.
He said that suicide was the only rational idea (something akin to that) but he didn't suggest suicide was a thing people should do. But instead to accept the absurdity of life.
I found satisfaction volunteering to help others but with very hard limits to my involvement - my 'giving' personality would very easily get taken advantage of so I need clear boundaries and start and…
We didn't get any choice in staying away from Camus at school, as his novels The Outsider and The Plague came up for French A levels.
This whole existentialist thing can be quite disturbing for a 17…
I want to die and the sooner the better. As long as it's painless. I'm bullied every day by violent men. Britain is fascist. My father bullies me every day. When I got my own flat two male neighbours terrorised me. No one cares. I have scars on my face from a time I cut myself with a knife in a few places. My jumper turned red with blood. When I did it I walked to the local pub and stood in the door while I was still bleeding. Suddenly all those hard men fell silent. Nothing really matters but be happy, have a good one.
Are you getting help? There are crisis cafes, crisis text services if you don't want to talk to people in person etc, theres lots of options out there. and a lot of them are trial and error, so if you have tried something before, its always worth trying again.
also could I ask that if you are going to talk about self harm and you are going to discribe it, please put in capitals a TRIGGER WARNING (self harm) infront of your text, so that people who are triggered by reading about such things, know to avoid it.
All of those people are weak phony hypocrites. None of them care about people like me. I tried, they take the mickey out of me.
Try being a man, who has no friends, and is Autistic and mentally ill. Suddenly you will see just how cruel and cold this world is.
I am a person with autism, mental illness, no friends and a shut in. Trust me, I know the world is cruel, which is why I avoid it the majority of the time. (seriously last time I left the house was last year and that was only for an hour, havent been out sice except to a furneral and even then I have to have valium to keep my anxiety down. I have my own history with the mental health system, breakdowns, hospitals therapists etc. I know its all very hard and its so easy to just give up on any hope that things will be different. But trust me, outlook on life, positivity and being kind to yourself goes a long way when it comes to quality of life.
Its exhausting at times and it is hard but it helps a lot. Be kind to yourself.
I've been raped, robbed, beaten up, had death threats, lost almost everything I ever aspired for. All I have lived for has been for nothing. So tell me, wise sage, where is the meaning in that?
Literally had the same experiences dude, I'm not claiming to be a sage, I am trying to help.
I'm not going to sit here and talk about all the trauma I have been through in order for you to maybe listen to me, take the advice or dont.
I just recognized myself in the way that you was speaking, and thought I would tell you what helped me through that.
Please don't assume others havent experienced trauma. We are all hurt people here.
I hope you get the help you need and can see this through.
To be fair. Roswell didn't assume. Not that you were definitely saying he was as such.
We all walk a different life, we have different ways of dealing with things. What works well for some may not work so well for another.
Some of us will take warmth from your words, and some of us will need to find our warmth in other ways.
Peace to you both.
He did though? he said "Try being a man, who has no friends, and is Autistic and mentally ill" he is assuming that I havent experienced those things.
Regardless, I am stepping away from this post because its getting too heavy and I am getting overwhelmed.
It's really good to have you on the forum Emmy.
When we've been on the forum a while, we get to understand some of the others who regularly post. You and Roswell will both know a little bit more about each other after this.