I'm getting so tired of life and living in general. I feel that I've accomplished nothing and that my only purpose has been to see terrible things happen to the people I love the most.

You know in the last five years I can't recall a single happy memory. There's only been sadness horror and death. Nothing good. Nothing to look forward to or look back on smiling.

I used to be hopeful that things would improve, get better but I was wrong. They got worse and now I've lost everyone and everything.

I'm just tired and empty now and I feel like my life is a train coming to the end of the track. I'm suffering from severe anxiety. I'm in pain every day. I'm sad and I'm utterly worthless.

Sorry for this rant. I have no right bringing my worthlessness here but I've got no one else to talk to.

Yours sincerely,